thats life .

tat dunia nih . xsemua yg kita nak ita dapat . even . we're really need it . malam nih saya still xley tdoo . im always thinking of him . dia pown thinking of me x ? yesss ! im laughing ! smiling ! and happy ! but thats only my outlook . dalam hatii . ALLAH jep yg tahuu . i dont know . saya xtahuu nak ckp nan sapa . nak luahhkan nan sapa . seriously . saya takottt ! saya takott saya xleyh nak survive . saya xready lagii nak menghadap DIA . hurm . setiap harii saya try to creat something yg saya boleyh lupakan this such thing . saya rasa saya xada sapa3 nak saya luahkan semua nihh . harii nihh genapp 10 bulann saya nan dia . diaa pown da bz nan life dia yg da turn to student again . like me . saya appreciate apa yg dia da buat untuk saya . tp dia serious love me ? or just because of to fill his empty when he is bored ? sometimes . saya rasa macam saya nih nothing towards him . dia nak kitaorang be professional . means ? no personal matter at all . yess ! i knew ! dulu tyme dia nan ex dia . ex diaa didnt care whether they are connecting or not . but saya xboleyhh ok . kalau boleyh saya nak selalu ada nan diaa . tp dia xpenahh nak paham kan . hurm . saya xtahuu larhh . xtahuu whether kami boleyh bertahan atau x . when i need him . dia bz . esokk ada klasss . saya xkisahhh . mama selaluu ckp if ada . ada larhh . tp saya nak diaa jepp . boleyhh x ???? sebelummm saya pergiiii . saya nak dia always ada nan saya . tp . apa hak saya ??? im just nothing towards him . someone that cant make his change .

p/s : seriously . i need him .