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ok . 4 march saya pulang ke tempat asal saya . iaitu klang bandar diraja apabila selama sebulan kott xbalik . mama !!! tggu abby aw ! heee ~ :)))

why my name ?

sakit hatii betol larhh . if kau nak wat apa pown xyahh lep nak guna nama akuu . nih tanda nya . aku mang da xsaba nan kauu . makin lama makin annoyed kan kauuu . aku tahuu larhh aku x sebaikk kauu . tp xyahh larhh nak guna nama aku .

p/s : please larhhhh . pangai uhh jgn buat aku annoyed tat kauu boleyhh ?

just my opinion .

for me . xyah larhh nak jadi somebody else or whatever . just be yourself . ok . if dia suka kita . or he want us . he will chase until ever . seriously, we dont need to turn be somebody else . ok . if someone uhh da hot stuff or whatever . xyah nak terhegeh hegeh nak follow like them . saya pelik kottt . ramai yg more fake than real . and one more thing . benda uhh simple . but dont make it difficult larhhh . hellooo ! human k ! of course ada make some mistake . memang . ada certain mistake kita xboleyh nak lupakan even orang uhh da minta maaf . tp at least try to be more real one than the fake one . actually . cara dia saya rasa cm not too suit for her . it enough if dia just being her self . sorry to say . awak cantik . but awak buat orang yg look at you like massy . because u're really want to be perfect . sorry if ada yg terasa . but this is for someone yg luar dari klang .

p/s : saya pown ada kekurangan . but i try to be my self . if dia really want to be a part of my life . he should accept me as the who am i . :)))

misss it very much !

haihhh !

rasa nak pijak jep fb nih !!! xleyhh nak login balik lakk . mmbe saya ckp boleyhh . why xleyhh lak sekarang nihh ! ???

p/s : agak nyep memang dia xbagii saya berfacebooking lagii kottt !

the reasons :

the reason why i'll reactive fb . saya suruh bagi saya 10 reason why saya kena reactive fb saya . nih jawapan dia :

1. abg syg sgt3 kt syg .

2. kte kenal kat fb syg .

3. abg rindu syg .

4. sekarang bila abg g kat page syg kosong jewh .

5. da xada org post kat abg .

6. abg pown da xleh nak post kat syg .

7. abg xnak org len nak syg jewh .

8. abg da xleh chatting ngn syg g .

9. abg da xley on9 kan syg punya g .

10. abg da xboleyh nak komen syg punya lg .

p/s : sesiapa yg baca mestii agak geliii . but do i caree ???? saya suka ini . heeee ~

lawak . tp itu larhh life .

dalam hidup nih sometimes lawak gilaa kan . sampai kita kena berpura pura . even itu untuk kebaikan orang lain . memang if kita pura pura or in english . hypocrite . orang xsuka . benci . annoyed . tp if benda uhh for kebaikan . why not kan ? if kita xtahu apa itu kesusahan . mybe kita ignore jep apa yg kita rasa . or apa yg ada dalam hidup kita . honestly . as a human we need to more matured . but at the same time kita kena honest nan diri kita . apa yg kita nak . kita memang susa nak puaskan aty semua orang . including orang yg kita sayang . manusia nih memang always not satisfied with what they belonging . even benda uhh da lebih dari cukup . saya rasa saya nih macam da dewasa but ramai ckp saya still childish . haihhh ! honestly . saya sendiri pown penah hypocrite . da benda uhh kita xsuka . but still ckp benda uhh kita suka . susa kan nak puaskan hatii suma orang . but kita pown kena pk tok happiness kita sendiri . buat selfish . but agak kejam ok if asyik kita jep mengalahh kan . and asyik kita jep kena scarified . xkan kita xnak ada someone buat something for us kan . heeeee ~ tp if dia da xtauu nak buat cm mana kann . just accept it . mama selaluu ckp . kita ada rezekii masing3 . tp if kita cangak bulu or dalam erti kata lain do nothing . rezeki uhh pown xkan datang . btw . mama totally right .

p/s : saya sangat rindukan mereka mereka sekarang .

just said only .

he said he love me . but the way he act . i can feel it . seriously . now we're rarely contact . his seem happy . very very happy . mybe both of us only can be not more than friend ?

p/s : if that is your wish . i'll be let you go . sincerely .

annoyed kottt !

adalah seorang hamba Allah nih . tahuu larhh kau uhh up to date . HOTTEST whatever . and so on larhhh . but kau xada hak ok nak judge orang lain about dorang punya appearance . come on larhhh . lantak dia larhh . nak pakai apa pown . yg pakai nyep dia . bukan kau ok . seriously . suck ok nan kau . kau depan depan dia . punya larhhh . baik . tp belakang dia . words kau mang power . aku xtahuu larhh if dia dengar sendiri apa yg kau ckp . even aku nih yg xada kena mengena pown . aku da hangin da . hello ! dia kawan kau ok . at least keep her secret da lep . sumpahhh ! pape pown aku xkan cita nan kau . no wonder larhh kau RAMAI GILAA MMBER ! *monolog dalaman . actually kau ok jep . but oipnion kau uhh yg buat orang rasa nak larikk jauhh dari kau uhh . seriously . kesian kott nan kauu .

p/s : bawak bawak lep tengok cermin ok . :)

kalau . . . .

kalau larhh saya nih macam mana dia nak . . . . hurm . kalau larhh dia boleyh terima saya seada nya . . . . . .

p/s : saya berusaha jadi apa yg awak nak . . . .

bila saya dengar lagu nih . he's in my mind :)

A thousand Years . . . . .

Heartbeats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I’m afraid to fall
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow
One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more

Time stands still
Beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything take away
What’s standing in front of me
Every breath
Every hour has come to this
One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more

One step closer
One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more

honestly .

dalam hidup nih . xsemua benda kita dapat . even benda uhh sangat penting dalam hidup kita . mama selaluu cakap . apa pown yg kita ada kita kena terima jeee . but keluarkan words is more easiest than nak make it real . hurmm . i dont know why . lately nih . saya rasa saya da xkisahh da tahhhh . apa orang nak buatt pown . its up to them . saya try jadii apa yg orang lain nak saya jadi . *apa saya ckp nih ? seeee ! ayat pown da tah pape . btw . saya just follow the flow .

deactive fb .

finally saya da deactive fb . dia suruh saya to active balik . but i have no in mood for that . seriously . saya da tawar hati nan fb . dia ckp . fb larh tempat kami know each other . but saya xrasa sekarang masa sesuai tok saya active balik . sorry . saya sayang awakk . but saya da malas lep nak fight nan awak just because of fb . da lep saya avoid apa yg saya boleyh avoid .

p/s : not in the mood for all of that . seriously .

tak kisah .

ok . serba tak kisah .

p/s : speechless .

just terima seadanya

lately nih . dye kind of cool towards me . apa yg saya buat . its like fraud and mistake . saya tahuu who i am . dye nak relationship nih understanding each other , but . . . did he feel what im feel ? ok . awak nak saya be understanding ? i'll be . just do what u want to do . awak cakap nak kita jadi professional right ? ok fine . saya jadi more professional as well as u want . please dear . saya da buat apa yg saya patut buat . but . u're the one who refuse that . sorry to say . if one day my feeling is turn different . saya hanya manusia je . saya bukan angle or whatever . yg hatii dye baikk jep . saya tahuu saya siapa towards u dear . and i realize that . sometimes . saya rasa saya yg terhegeh3 tat awak . while awak i look like usual . awak yg buat saya rasa macam uhh .

p/s : saya terima jep awak . but . . . again i want to remind u . Im just an human . have patience .