voice .

again and again . u still with ur stand that always wait for me to speak first . it is hard to speak it out first ? make some story first ? u wait for me . but i ? with who i want to wait for ? hmmm . dear . i know that ur behavior . but can't u change for me ? can't u make something for me ? i know . u'll think that im calculating with u . or im nope sincere with u . totally wrong ok . u still in my heart . can't u give more and more ?

P/S : still wait for the next . hopefully u're more alert . just still stand to love for u dear .

he make me smile again . :))))

simple text from him that make me until now still standing for him :

SYG...ABG XKN TGGLKN SYG SMPI AKHR HYAT ABG.. ABG SYG SGT3 NAN SYG..ABG DA CINTAKAN SYG SGT2.. ! !

*sweet x ? jiwang gakkk dear saya nihhh .

if in english :

BABY...I'LL NEVER LEAVE U UNTIL MY LAST BREATH.. I'D LOVE U SO MUCH !

*sytle x ? HAHAHA !

HE'S THE ONE FOR ME ! heeeee ~

P/S : <3 U UNTIL MY LAST BREATH !

oh no !

saya paling tak suka suka bila saya tak boleh tidoo malam . so sucks ! boley x kalaw saya jadii cam orang lain ? senang nak tidoo malam . bak kata mama : mana x nya . susa tidoo malam . siang tidooo cam xada haryy lagii da . HAHAH ! mama nihh kan ! suka memberii kata kata yg menusuk ke sanubarii . HAHAHA ! SERIOUSLY . since arwah pakcik saya gone . saya turn to senang terkejuttt . then . mula larhh jantung lajuuu gilaaaa . mata ! jgn buattt gilaaaa ! da final da nihh . t stuck kunk i'll died ok . seeeee . da almost 2 i still nope feel sleepy yet . goshh ! please larhhh . jgn sampai saya makan ubattt tidoo kunkkk . xbangun bangun kang . HAHAH ! (CM BESH JEP) heeee ~ da lep muncittt uhh tidoo pulakkk . haishhh ! baruuu nak MENGUMPAT KEMAIN KAN ! hahah ! dye pown suka ngumpatt gk uhhh ! kemainnn kaw yerrr . HAHAHHAH !

P/S : ACTUALLY . SAYA CM XADA STORY JEP . HAHAHA !*SEWEL

my SUPERWOMEN ok !

here is my SUPERWOMEN . HAHA ! SANTEKKK X ? OF COURSE LEP ! GORGEOUS OK ! now she very very busy wif my sis weeding coming soon . she look quite tired and very very no time to rest .

P/S : ABBY SAYANG MAMA SGT SGT ! HEEE ~

suddently .

bila saya stalker blog member saya . suddently saya teringat tat dye . only one ordinary guy yg saya penah kenal b4 nih . dye yg aja saya how to appreciate our partner . tyme saya kenal dye dulu . dye biasa jep . simple . but nice . dye banyak saba nan saya yg perangai cm budak budak . tyme uh saya just take it easy . yep lep . budak kan . dye penah tuggu saya about 2hours . agak amazing kan . kalaw saya lep . mesty saya da blah da . dye slow jep orang nyep . never speak louder with me . even though im quite annoyed . baik kan dye . tapi when im truly falling love with him . his passed away . gone . leave me behind . b4 this i cant accept it . after he's gone . im gonna be like non direction girl . just simply accept who are want me be their gf . seriously . and extremely . when im accept jep that guy . my feeling is EMPTY . NOTHING . hurmmm . firstly . im just act as usual . just follow the flow . but im quite cruel arh gkk . coz . im his gf but im just ignore him . until my friend said . heyy ! dont fooling with his feeling . if u're at his shoes . what did u felt ? im rethink back . they're quite true . so . im simply let him go . i dont know why . even though . i'd couple with him about a year . i have no feeling with him . my feeling refuse to accept another guy except my him before . actually . he refuse to let go me firstly . but im strongly still with my decision that wanna to break up . then until he's giving up mybe . then . im still single about a year jugak larhh . at the same time . im still thinking of my old him . once . im dreaming of him . he said . go ! and looking for your happiness . mybe he wont me still keep thinking on him . mybe this is the time for me to find someone that can replace his position . until . im in semester fourth gonna be semester fifth . i've found someone that similar with him . their attitude also quite same . but physically of course different because they is not a same guy . he only can open back my heart to accept him like i'd accept my him old before . he also can understand me . be patent of me . can accept my childish behavior . once i said . i love u . means . i really meant it . it not like simply can said that words . mybe its very simply to others . but nope me .

p/s : seriously . strongly . extremely . i love u dear . >,<

kejadian semalam .

semalam saya call mama saya . then ini larhhh conversation between mama nan saya :

saya : mama bz ?

mama : boley larhh . mama g tgok sewa khemahh kakak t uhh . napa nihh ?

saya : xada pape . saje jep call mama .

mama : da amek duit ?

saya : lowm lagiii . . .

mama : larhh . napa lowm lagiii ? abah da bank in da pg td .

saya : kad kene telan . then dalam wallet nothing . *sebak

mama : larhh . napa ley sampai kene telan ? atm rosak kep ?

saya : tah lep ma . malas nak pk .

mama : abby nihh . baruu macam nihh da give up . lowm time keje t . saba .

saya : tga saba lep nih ma .

mama : jgn nangissss .

saya : silenttt .

mama : (start dgn dye nyep lecture) saba jep b . nihh kan semua dugaan .

saya : hurmm .

mama : abby nan sapa uh ?

saya : sorang jep .

mama : kawan abby yg budak bilik uhh mana ?

saya : xtaw .

mama : dye xtolong ?

saya : kalau dye nak da lama da dye turun ma . . .

mama : xapa larhh . ALLAHH MAHA ADIL .

P/S : SAYA SUKA QUOTE MAMA UH (ALLAH MAHA ADIL) DARI KECIK KOTTT ASEK DENGAW MAMA CKP CM UH . :))

extremely disappointed !

today was my unlucky day . atm machine was telan my bank card . then . today jugak saya learned something . friends are like candle . when needed looking for me . but bila xdiperluukan . just ignore it . thanks a lot ok . now i know the true color . before this . saya dyam jep . silent . silent . and silent . saya hanya manusia . sabar saya ada limit . saya mukan malaikat . yg sentiasa sabar . btw . seriously . thank u for ur treat . saya da anggap awak as a part of my life . but u broke it . dont blame on me . saya tahu siapa saya . but jgn treat saya cm uhh . saya pownn ada feeling . seriously da penattt . alwaysss keep care about people feeling . and how about my feeling ? can simply step on jep ? sorry to say . im cant with u anymore . fullstop !

p/s : sem 5 sem paling tough !

i've no idea .

i felt like our distance is very far . not like usual . is it im change ? or they not interest to know about me ? i think about several month we're not communicate . seriously . i mish them . but how about them ? hurmmm . i understand they situation . quite bz . why they doesnt text me at all ? hurmm . sometimes . i think i've make mistake toward them . if i had . i really really sorry . but . they didnt tell me . ok fine . just silent . hurrmmm .

p/s : saya tauu saya xada effect pown tat life kowg kan .

his mine 2 !

he is mine . this pic very very cute ! a little of my boy . HAHA !

P/S : muncitttt saya tyme tecikk . HAHAHAH !

his mine !

my love increase . increase and increase until the end . :))))

p/s : thank you dear be mine . <3

why with him ?

i dont know why . he like ignorance . i dont know why . is it my fault ?

p/s : LOVE HIM DAMN MUCH !

first time in my life .

first time kottt pegii raya uma bf . b4 nihhh xpenahh pown lgii . xpenahh terpk pown nak rayaa uma bf b4 nihhh . tp serious . rasa cm xnak lepassss jep . tp raya this tyme like nothing . xrasa nak rayaaa pownn . mana x nyeppp . cuty a week jep . baik xyahh cutyy jep . then raya nihh pown xsempattt nak raya rumahh dorang . cm hape jepp . rase guilty gkk . dorang dtg umaa saya tp saya x dtg umaa dorang . but . nak buat macam mana . da x sihattt kan . hurrrmmm . but this time i feel like dorang ignore saya jepp . tat uma pown xsempattt nak g uma dorang . sory sgt3 aw korang . then time tat uma dye lakkk ley spoil . haishhh ! boley lak stained ! hadoiii ! maluuu gilaaaa ! for the first time of my life . a guy seen my stained ! boley lak dye gelakk time tgokk uh . cm xpenahh tgokk lak . haisshhh ! but . seriously . whole day uhh saya happyyy sgt3 . even time of month . tp saya x moody pownnn . heeee ! *gatai ! time dye bawak g uma dye uhh . rasa cm balikk kampungg jepp . yep lepp . orang xada kampungg kan ! agakk batak yerr disituuu ! HAHA ! mama nan abahh pownn can accept him . thank god ! coz before nihh mama agakkk bisisng bilaaa saya bawak guy dtg umaaa . yep lep . umaaa perempuann kan ! saya pown xpenahh g umaaa guy b4 nihhh . heeee ~

p/s : dear ! hope our relationship untill end ! i dont care what people say . i know u and u know me right ! saya mukannn nak menggataii or whateverrrr . but i'll love him in whole my life .