Really good song

Find your light
Don't hide from what you are
And rise before you fall
And hope for something more
Live if you really want to
Live if you really want to

All my life I've been looking for something amazing
It's almost like I've been stargazing
The sky is right above me
We were meant for something bigger than this
Don't ever try to dismiss yourself cause you don't have to

(Chorus)

All my life my dreams just seemed so far away
And now it's like theyre here to stay
I hold it close to me
We were meant for something bigger than this
Don't ever try to dismiss yourself cause you don't have to

(Chorus) x2

Live if we really want to
Live if we really want to
Live if we really want to
Live if we really want to

seriously, when I listen to this song, buat aku rasa aku nak bangun balik and fight for it, even failure yang aku face tu tak lah besar mana kan. for example quiz haritu aku dapat sikit je, and if aku rasa aku ni kurang dari orang lain, aku rasa aku ni seriously lower than others, I will listen to this song.  

previous moment

I miss our previous moment, the moment that he always be with me, always say something that touched me. but now, he turn to MATURED GUY that start busy with work life, while i'm just still with student status. aku tahu dia busy gila dengan kerja dia, dengan stress lagi, if previously, aku boleh feel yang dia really get into me, but now, my feeling is tell me that i'm too small for him, i mean he's already growth. while me still learn about life. seriously aku rindu gila dengan texting dia yang dulu, texting budak lelaki yang love his girlfriend very much. yang tak boring bila cakap dengan aku, always want to be with me, I've notice his change when he start work. aku tak cakap lah nak dia 24 hours dengan aku je, of course dia ada benda lain yang dia nak buat, but aku just miss dia yang dulu, guy yang aku kenal always be with me when I need him. bila aku baca balik draft texting yang dia sent dekat aku before this, automatically I teringat guy yang pernah kerja dekat shah alam just because nak dekat dengan aku, aku tahu dia start fikir future dia, and aku tahu dia nak gain something dalam hidup dia. aku pown busy dengan degree life aku sekarang, dengan stress, homesick, feeling down, now aku tak tahu nak story problem aku dengan siapa, pernah sekali tu aku story problem aku, and his respond is quite disappointed, betul ke if relationship tu dah achieve 2 years, it become boring? why aku tak pernah pown rasa boring towards him? just aku tak faham why certain time tu dia macam tak faham langsung situation aku? always nak buat aku marah? sampai satu tahap aku rasa tu bukan dia, bukan guy yang aku kenal 2 years ago. aku pernah give up in this relationship, aku tanya mama, betul ke guy cepat boring dengan relationship yang dah lama ni? then mama reply, kalau dia betul jodoh kau, dia tak kan pernah boring, lagi dia sayang kau adalah. sometimes aku fikir, betul ke he love me? dia dah berubah sangat, dia dah tak suka aku banyak cakap dengan dia, or maybe memang tak ada jodoh? satu ayat dia yang aku rasa yang dia memang bukan jodoh aku, aku cakap dengan dia, "tak kan abg nak tendang syg, syg kan tulang rusuk abg" then dia reply, " eh! kenapa tak boleh? belum tentu lagi syg ni tulang rusuk abg" actually I'm surprising ok dengan statement dia, tapi aku buat cool je, actually every single thing yang dia pernah cakap dengan aku, aku analyze it, now aku dapat banyak hint. its ok, until aku dapat hint yang concrete seriously aku blah, its ok, maybe if aku blah, memang frust lah cerita dia, biar sakit sekarang, jangan time dah kahwin, baru tahu dia not exactly sayang kita, memang dah tak boleh u-turn dah, better buat right decision sekarang, so in the future tak ada lah menyesal bagai. aku just nak someone yang dia rasa dia ada responsible towards me, my children and my family. bak kata mama, kahwin dengan orang yang sayang kita, bukan kita yang sayang orang tu, aku nak guy yang bukan for temporary boleh live with me, but for hereafter too. its ok, since aku dah dengan dia, aku analyze lagi dia macam mana