I wont .

Don't ask me why .

This is what I feel

I knew , kita semakin far away , awak dengan study awak , and saya dengan study saya . saya tahu awak rasa saya dah lain , and same goes to me . penat dah nak nangis or fikir benda yang belum lagi jadi milik kita . banyak hint awak bagi dekat saya . its ok , selagi saya boleh sabar , tahan , stay dengan relationship nih , I will still stand . but if your name is not listed in my heart . sorry to say , maybe we're not meant to be . seriously , lately , im feel empty . you are not around when I really need you . and honestly , I have nobody else . don't force me to ignore you .

its that you ?

I dont know why , lately nih ada je salah saya , tadi baru je balik openhouse dekat DSG , then balik , even saya keluar pown , saya still texting him , but bila balik je , suara dia , sound like saya ada buat salah , wait , saya tak tahu pun apa salah saya , hurm , he's very different from what I know before , saya takut , what im feel now , will disappear , saya manusia je awak , saya tak ada kuasa nak change what im feel , bila saya tengok balik text yang awak sent dekat saya , im feel down , seriously , if you still behave like this , I dont know whether this feel still can exist or not , honestly , I love you the way you are , but from my observation , you looks like can't accept the way I am , but it is only what I think , saya memang susah nak sayang someone , if once I love him , he's insyaallah placed only in my heart , but if once I left you , I'll never turn back to be with you anymore , yes , im smiling , laughing , happy , but it is only what you seen , inside of my heart , Allah je yang tahu , saya dah buat yang terbaik untuk awak , but if awak sendiri yang tak take this as the important part of your life , sorry , my heart is not too tough for stand for it , just left me if yourself dont know what relationship is .