still same

ingatkan dye da faham , but still not , hurm , nothing can i say , just silent ,

p/s : tak mampu .

seem changed

you know what , at first time we getting together , and you approach me , I really really excited , coz u're different than other guy , I can accept u , then , at the middle of our relationship , seriously , i hope that u can be my IMAM , thats all , u're so nice , pagi pagi send me a text , like this . hurm but now , hurrmm

why ?

kenapa bila kita da syg sumtin , mama selalu cakap , jgn syg sgt , but xboleh , da try , but now , i knew , hanya mampu senyum .

Tolong

saya da penat ok nak defend relationship kita . orang da not interested kan . speechless ,

20 of jun

today is his bufday , dye happy , and saya pown happy , seriously , I love u dude . heeee ~

xboleh tido ,

hurmm , xboleh tido pulak , so update blog lep , nih lep bahana minum nescafe , kosong jep rasa , hurm

memory

dulu , saya pernah falling in love with someone guy yang baik sgt , dye xpenah mara saya , dye always saba , saba dan saba , attitude dye biasa jep , nothing special , words yang dye mention tat saya , yang saya keep sampai sekarang , HARGAI APA YANG KITA ADA , and now , dye aman tat sana , and now , Allah replace him dengan somebody yang baik jugak , hope apa yang saya nampak , itu larhh awak , dear , u make me smile , laugh , happy , sad , cry and everything , and hope , but please dont make me surrender and just let u go .

The real life .

betul cakap mama . Allah itu Maha Adil lagi Mengetahui , ok , if dye betul tak kan tak berani nak face kami right . but the question is , why dye look like escape from us , but us just act like nothing , bak kata orang dahulu kala , berani kerana benar , takut kerana salah , im know , nobody perfect ok , mesti ada mistake , but tahap kesabaran seorang manusia ada limit dye , sorry larhhh if da terkeluar semua , seriously , xada masa ok nak ambil tahu hal orang lain , or benda yang tak penting , but if da lama pendam and simpan , of course one day akan terkeluar semua right , btw , actually this is not our style , gado sana , gado sini , but as we said before , we just feel a bit disappointed , but we just like usual . just face the life like the way we are , i know even orang baik mana pown , tipu larhhh xada ngumpat , or ngate orang lain , thats a life , except nabi larhhh , seriously , in the year 2012 , i've learn how the real life are , dont ever expect that people else understand what we face and what we through , mama always remind me , before speak it out , rethink as much as we can , mama cakap , kita rasa kan apa orang buat dekat kita , and now , kita jangan buat dekat orang lain , abah pown cakap , just be yourself , but u know your limit as a human , just sabar jee , accept the life , at least ada orang yang care about our life kan , ye larhh , sibuk nak tahu and ambil tahu , now kan , i just pray that my next life gonna be fine and more better rather than now , saya ada terbaca nice quote , Allah will replace our tear now with the smile at the future ,

why must be like this ?

I dont know why , dia makin xpaham saya , even saya da explain , dye till ingat yang saya nih ada orang lainn , heelloooo ! Im not that kind of girl ok , I know my limit , saya just chatting with mmbe lama yang umur nya hanya seorang budakkk , dye just share story dye , about his gf , if dye , nak tgok Euro or whatever , saya paham . nak keluar , hang out , hmmm . I i felt like someone that useless towards him , ok dye pown ada tag a pic nan mmbe girl dye , saya mara jugak , but not same like he mad on me , please larhhh , im just a ordinary person , have a patent ,

sweet tak ?

malam tadi . time kami on call . suddenly , dia cakap dengan saya . tolong jangan ada orang lain , jangan text orang lain , jangan call orang lain . saya tak pernah buat ok . so far , im trust him , totally trust him , but dear , once you break my trust , it is will not be same like before , because , trust is like a mirror , once it is break , dont ever think it is can be perfect like before , 

p/s : dear , dont break me .

JUST THE WAY WE ARE

we are totally different . he very very silence person . and im the one talkative person . but we are meet . lastly , hope we can stay together until the end . 

The puzzle

 Dia dan saya

 Nothing can be replace 

 Si sepet saya !

only him

ok . tadi dia datang rumah saya . kami spent time together tadi . seriously , I really really enjoy with you . even this is first time saya naik motor with my bf . but boleh larhh . dia suka bawak lajuu . nak terbang shawl tadi . so far im trust you dear , please hold my trust and keep it . seriously , I really hope we are meant to be . please dont hurt me ok . 

p/s : dear honestly , only you in my heart . 

unexpected

since saya dengar and nampak sendiri the unfaithful guy . saya takut , saya takut if saya di tempat mereka mereka , why guy tak tahu nak appreciate girl yang sedia ada at they side ? why guy tak fikir . if dorang buat macam tu . one day they will get back . life ni ada karma kottt . like a cycle . today korang ada di atas later on korang ada di bawah balik . means . if korang buat kat any girl , not impossible korang dapat balik apa yang korang pernah buat , dude , Allah anugerahkan 9 akal bukan untuk mainkan girl . but untuk guide girl for hereafter . I didnt mention that , he same like other unfaithful guy , but im afraid , if one day he will change . and leave me . honestly , i didnt think that our relationship just as title couple . but i also want it become a marriage . but . semua tu fate . if Allah said he is my destiny . and we are meant to be . alhamdulillah . but if Allah said , he's not mine . and we are not meant to be . i had to accept it . dear , once you cheated me . i not sure i can accept you like now , or maybe i can save our relationship ,

in the reality

yes , as a human , we cant be perfect . everybody had their weaknesses . apa yang saya pelik . ada juga orang dalam dunia ni yang rasa mereka sudah cukup perfect untuk berkata kata pada orang lain , ok . I knew . Im just 21 for story this kind of thing . but even saya not have a lot of experience , saya tahu jugak beza beza mana yang baik and mana yang buruk . why people nowadays very selfish ? mama saya selalu cakap . Allah itu maha adil . one day nanti . every single thing akan tahu jugak . and I da nampak tu semua . dalam hidup ni . sabar itu penting . but if tahan da lama . of course one day akan throw it out everything right , what I learned from this life , just being yourself , dont easily listen to anybody , people never satisfied with what they wanna to say , yes , life is tough we need to be strong and more stronger to face this reality life ,