why ?

now . even my self dont know my feeling . sometime . im happy . then i'll be sad . i dont know why . whats wrong with me ? why life is complicated ? why people doesnt care our feeling ? even once ? or im the one who are change ? hurm . dalam hidup saya . ada beberapa orang yg sangat penting . where i can died for them . which is : first of all . mama . abah . kakak . mok . seriously . without them im just like nothing . actually . saya xada masalah apa apa pown nan mereka . tp kalau gaduh nan mok uhh mang kerap lep . normal larhh . sibling kan . mama suka membebel . its ok . im used with it . dari kecil kottt . mama mang cm uhh . saya da kenal sgt da nan mama uhh , now . i've someone that change my life . but thats for me larhh . for his . i cant say . dont know . saya tahu saya banyak sakitkan hatiii dye . even dye xckp pown . saya tahuu . actually . saya sendiri pown xnak jadi macam nih . saya xtahuu why saya rasa dye xsayangkan saya . even . dye da banyak kaliii cakapp pada saya . hurm . saya xnak rasa cm nihhh . tapii nih larhh apa yg saya rasa . sometimes . saya pown rasa saya just nothing towards him . like nothing . he's not like before . macam xsama seperti duluuu . hurmm .

p/s : please guide me .